Note[s] to self:

→ Stop worrying so much about whether or not people like you.
→ Take it one day at a time.

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Dr. L wants me to write in a real journal for a while. I told him it would be a waste of paper, but he has a point; I can never really feel upset when I meet with him, so it would be better if I recorded them in the moment.

Therefore, there won't be any updates for a while but that's not really anything new. Will still be available, though.

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...The fact that I can go a week without doing/ writing anything worth posting is slightly pathetic.

I did go visit Dr. L this week, though. It was kind of wierd, because I almost broke down in his office. And I'm not even feeling bad! At least, I'm not depressed like I was. Maybe I'm just nervous since school starts this Friday. [ ( Read more... )

I've been busy. In fact, it feels as though I've been on a roller coaster. Not the "oh, shit, I'm gonna die" kind, but the kind that shudders and jumps at points but generally makes you giggle because you don't feel like you should be scared...

But that didn't make any sense.

I now play Mahaado at 
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I'm done. Finally. Excuse me while I collapse.

So much to say, I don't know where to start. It's spring break at last, but with all this luck I now have a cold. And we were going to  the beach with my aunt and grandmother...I don't know if I'll feel well enough to go now. Shit. They're both here now, and Aunt Vickie looks well. Bald, but better than ( Read more... )

I've got to get myself together. Been slacking off at school for no particular reason, so now I'm all stressed and feeling like a stupid, lazy idiot. No reason for this behavior. Restless sleep is another symptom, but my overall mood is fine ( Read more... )

I've got to focus harder on school. I've been slacking; forgetting things and assignments. But I have been kind of happy ever since I talked to Dr. L, so it's hard to take things quite as seriously.

I dreamed about Egypt the other day. My grandparents lived there for a few years, so I incorporated their stories into something about Yuugiou. It was ( Read more... )

Went to see Dr. L today.

I swear that guy is some kind of magician. He always manages to make me feel better in any situation. I'm really lucky to have him as a mentor. Shrink. Whatever.

He talked to Dad, too. I swear, he even lightened him up. Dad and I were actually cheerful when we left his office. I think we--dare I say it?--bonded.

Weird.

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What the hell is wrong with me? I've been taking my pills, but I'm starting to feel like I did back then. I know that weight on my chest any day. I can't write; can't even think about writing. It's like there's a fucking pit in my heart. Why? Nothing's different. Maybe I should take another.

No, that's stupid. Gotta think clearly here. I'm smart. I ( Read more... )